Somewhere between the prayer requests and the small group answers and the service rotation, you stopped following Jesus and started working for him. You know what this feels like: the quiet exhaustion under the faithfulness, the sense that God has become an employer and you have become an employee …
Podcast
501: You’re Still Performing for the Applause You Claim Not to Need. Pentatonix’s Kevin Olusola and Donovan Dee Donnell on Giving Up the Ghost, Why Fear Is a Weapon of Separation, and Purifying Your Motivations to Get Into Alignment
You already know something is off. The output is there. You're showing up, doing the work, performing at a level other people can see. But underneath all of it, there's a strain you can't quite name — a low-grade exhaustion that has nothing to do with how many hours you slept and everything to do …